Painful Yesterdays, Better Tomorrows

Empty Vessels Need Filling Yesterday was that day I'll blame it on being female first off, for scientific reasons. You can infer what you will. Couple that with feeling like this week was Groundhog Day work wise, a child who has suddenly taken up a habit of hitting teachers at daycare, certain situations...

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I Know.

I’m watching you self-medicate to cope and it breaks me. It breaks my heart to see you filling voids with empty, harmful things. I know the pain beneath the cover up. I know the sorrow behind the smirk. I recognize it because it’s lived inside me too. I know that even in a crowded room you can feel alone. I know that in the middle of going through the motions of learning how to be okay, you’re...

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Grace Under Pressure

We’ve put such pressure on ourselves and others to always be the best and to always exceed expectations, that when someone, including ourselves, doesn’t meet or exceed our expectations, we get angry and write them off as unworthy. I’ll be the first to tell you I’m guilty. I put rules and expectations on people that I never tell them about and then get mad when they can’t meet them. I expect...

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An Open Letter - To Others Like Me

I am comfortable with confrontation. Too comfortable, probably. I am comfortable with criticism, competition, and skepticism. In fact, if you want to light my fire - tell me I'm incapable of something - and watch me explode. I have been proving myself my entire life. From sports, to academics, to work - nobody has given me anything.  I was introduced to the grind when I was 13 years old -...

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Endings and Beginnings and Dealing with the Fuzzy Middle

Fin. Endings are never easy...unless you're a robot and you don't actually grasp what an "end" is. Unfortunately, in order to connect with people we have to give them pieces of ourselves in one way or another. In turn, they give us pieces of them. No matter how terrible a situation is or how much "better for us" an ending may be...it's still hard. Depending on the length of the relationship, some...

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Chase Your Sunset: New Year, New Doubts

I never know how to properly start introductions after not writing for so long. Sorry? It's been a while? You already know that. I also always have a tendency to promise I'll do this more often and life has a tendency to get in the way. I want to inspire you but the truth is, I don't feel inspiring...

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Lucky Number Seven - How this Immigrant Girl Found Her Way and Discovered What Being An American Means

It's been a while Blog World! Since I wrote my last post I have: celebrated Easter, got baptized *whoop!*, found out what the word "three-nager" really means, ate a lot on the Fourth of July, welcomed my Grandparents from Serbia, oh, and switched jobs! Also, our lovely Cherokee Trailhawk was totaled--...

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